A decade

I started this writing blog almost a decade ago. My main reason was because I heard of people getting discovered by literary agents through blogging and twitter. But of course that didn't happen to me. So I just write because I really love writing and that is how I best express myself. Although I wish my words could be seen by the world, I am the only one that sees them, even though it's online. I really would like a writing career more than anything. Retail has drained most of my life energy and I really have no desire for any other line of work. Sometimes I wish I would have done things different in my youth. I should have just studied Library Science since I love books and reading. Now my youth is dwindling and my dream is just that a dream. 

I don't mind getting older but I really wish I was closer to my dream. Sometimes I feel I wasted so much of my youth and energy trying Computer Science and constantly failing in classes. But I know you can't dwell on the past. But it has directed my present state. When I read about people and their self-publishing successes, I thought I might have the same outcome. But none the less it wasn't so.It's been seven years since I took my dreams in my own hands and self-published. It didn't turn into a career. Sometimes I feel like a loser because I'm not good or excel at a lot of things. I'm not a rocket scientist or a math whiz. I'm just a creative person with imagination bursting at the seams. I just wish I could do the one thing I'm really passionate about. Writing for a living.